Dealing with death
A few weeks ago a good friend of mine died on COVID-19 when she was just 52 years old.
Beside all the personal loss this also affected me as a developer in my daily work.
This might sound inappropriate in this situation, but after some days after I got the message I also started thinking about myself.
Counting working years
I started counting working years from now to the day I will be 52 years as well. Realizing that it's not much more than one decade left.
This sounds stupid - even to me - while writing this down now.
"What do you want to achieve?"
Asking myself the question what I would like to "achieve" within my work time left.
I love my current job, but I was also asking myself whether this is what I want to do for the next 10 years.
"Could I achieve something 'more meaningful' within my developer career" and if so, could I really achieve that?
Or is there more potential to achieve something within my spare time?
I just got questions, no answers yet.
The loss hurts so much! Questioning myself about my career path is just a very small, niche part of this process within myself.
I lost a good friend, powerful woman and digital thinker way too early in her life.
R.I.P Monika - See you again!