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Dealing with death

A few weeks ago a good friend of mine died on COVID-19 when she was just 52 years old.

Beside all the personal loss this also affected me as a developer in my daily work.

Career thoughts

This might sound inappropriate in this situation, but after some days after I got the message I also started thinking about myself.

Counting working years

I started counting working years from now to the day I will be 52 years as well. Realizing that it's not much more than one decade left.

This sounds stupid - even to me - while writing this down now.

"What do you want to achieve?"

Asking myself the question what I would like to "achieve" within my work time left.

I love my current job, but I was also asking myself whether this is what I want to do for the next 10 years.

"Could I achieve something 'more meaningful' within my developer career" and if so, could I really achieve that?

Or is there more potential to achieve something within my spare time?

I just got questions, no answers yet.

Final words

The loss hurts so much! Questioning myself about my career path is just a very small, niche part of this process within myself.

I lost a good friend, powerful woman and digital thinker way too early in her life.

R.I.P Monika - See you again!